The song
Played the song after a long time...a very long time.
Memories fraught with betrayal flashed deep within. Its strange how something so banal and trivial as a song can act as a catalyst to revive things you didn't want to remember and soon you are caught in it's vice like grip...memories of another day, another time.
Fuck.
'Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind'.
Would you really try and erase memories that can hurt you?
Why hurt?
But you can't, can you?
You need them, you want them, if only to remember...yesterday.
You play the song again. Loop it.
Memories you thought can only hurt, have a way of acting as a cathartic agent and soon thru the mist of pain and hurt you see what once was the pursuit of happiness...delivered.
It was a time of magic. Each day was was a day of possibilities and life was not just an amalgam of hedonistic pursuits alone, you were trying to reach higher and seek the altar of altruism.
Then you thought, life can never get better.
Prescient.
There it plays again.
The song, its haunting lyrics and melliflous rendition is powerful enough to make you want to seek forgiveness. But you have travelled a long way on the road you took and sometimes its better to live with the choices you made.
Someday, if paths converge, you can probably look him in the eye...again. Until then, you will occasionally listen to the song and remember.
Remember...yes.
Memories fraught with betrayal flashed deep within. Its strange how something so banal and trivial as a song can act as a catalyst to revive things you didn't want to remember and soon you are caught in it's vice like grip...memories of another day, another time.
Fuck.
'Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind'.
Would you really try and erase memories that can hurt you?
Why hurt?
But you can't, can you?
You need them, you want them, if only to remember...yesterday.
You play the song again. Loop it.
Memories you thought can only hurt, have a way of acting as a cathartic agent and soon thru the mist of pain and hurt you see what once was the pursuit of happiness...delivered.
It was a time of magic. Each day was was a day of possibilities and life was not just an amalgam of hedonistic pursuits alone, you were trying to reach higher and seek the altar of altruism.
Then you thought, life can never get better.
Prescient.
There it plays again.
The song, its haunting lyrics and melliflous rendition is powerful enough to make you want to seek forgiveness. But you have travelled a long way on the road you took and sometimes its better to live with the choices you made.
Someday, if paths converge, you can probably look him in the eye...again. Until then, you will occasionally listen to the song and remember.
Remember...yes.
2 Comments:
sometimes i wish we could erase memories but then i believe they are things that make us stronger. So that after years we can turn back and see how strong we have become now :)
i'm unnerved now :-/
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